I want to start my story in the present and from there I’ll go back and I’ll see where I’ll end it. Sometimes it’s hard to be an ex fat woman but I think it is much harder to be fat. The endless war against your fat, the low self esteem, the lack of self confidence, the huge encyclopaedia in your head about each food and how much calories it has. Many people think that if you loss 20-30 pounds then life are prettier. They are much prettier but it doesn’t end there – you still need to keep the thin lifestyle that you chose.
Since I was a little girl I was always “full”. I always had this belly and those big thighs but it never disturbed me until I was 14 or so. Then I started to feel guilty about my body, I started to dislike it. One night I woke up at 2 AM and started crying. I didn’t understand why was I fat, I never wanted to be fat. At that night I took a pen and paper and wrote down a promise to do everything I can to loss weight.
Since then it was a never ending war, I read so much about the topic, I tried so many diet plans, weight loss programs, weight loss pills – you name it. I went on killer diets – lost 30 pounds just to gain them again. Hurt my health more than once. I have done it all and tried it all.
It’s been over 10 years now that I don’t pass my 120 pounds limit but only in the last 5 years I stopped being fat inside. Because losing weight isn’t only about burning that fat and living a healthy lifestyle, it is also about changing you self esteem and you perception of yourself. It is about walking into a store and not going straight to the big things section, or thinking a minute before deciding on the size of the new jeans that you want to try on.
Well I guess I’ll stop now and maybe add more stuff to this post in the future or write a post on why I decided to make helping other loss weight my profession.
If you want to share your story – feel free.
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